There are times I try to control everything, be perfect, do everything right. I am not very successful but I try. Harder I try the more I feel like a failure. I’m incredibly busy so it becomes the routine status quo. Strange thing is I often don’t even know it until someone points it out.
This weekend we are in Hot Springs, AR. I was excited to try out the famous spring waters! I needed a place without an appointment since I didn’t have time to waste. Quapaw Baths has thermal pools for just $20 and no time limit!! So you can be sure I jumped at the opportunity to soak in the mineral waters and relax for three hours. It was early in the day so that meant quiet, reflective time. I soaked, prayed, and read a book on adoption.
First, the mineral soak in 94-104 degree water wonderfully soothing. Did it heal me of anything? Not that I noticed but it definitely felt great and provided the peace of mind a busy woman needs occasionally.
Second, I am not afraid to pray in the busiest of moments but the peaceful times are a necessity… even Jesus went off to be alone. A time to reevaluate was in order. I need to make sure I’m on the track God wants me to be on. You see, I’m a strong person with firm opinions who isn’t afraid to tell God the way things will work out (complete with dates and deadlines). It hasn’t really worked out well for me. So quiet times of peaceful reflection and submission are a must or I will go full-steam ahead on my own plan. Been there, done that. Going a route less traveled is a better plan now.
Third, the adoption book was about how all of us have been adopted by God as full sons, complete with full inheritance. Each chapter brought out new insights (think paradigm shift) of the old ideas. I cried several times as my sinful nature weighed down on me then rejoiced as God brought me back to Him in an emotional hug. Yes, I feel His hugs when the Holy Spirit provides me with peace. I only made it through the first three chapters as it was heavy theology, Adopted for Life, if your interested.
I feel ready to follow God lead and the peace of letting Him go the driving.
At the Quapaw met the lovely Maria, native of Romania, lives in Houston but visits Hot Springs regularly. We had several touching conversations. I hope I was able to bring some light into her life with the hope of Christ as well.
I left the Quapaw Baths with a renewed sense of peace and purpose. May God bless you with the same in your daily life!